Today we returned to the juvenile home to teach about trusting God. I was pondering trust last night and I think trusting God for me can be a huge struggle b/c one, as an American, I have so many material blessings that can often take my focus away from God. And 2, when we trust in people, we are so easily disappointed b/c we obviously make mistakes and let others down. Therefore, I think it's almost hard to comprehend the way that we can trust in God. I told the kids today that sometimes it's hard to trust God b/c we can only see what's right in front of us instead of the big picture. But Romans 8:28 says, "in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." I have to remind myself of this too, especially this afternoon I feel discouraged. I'm not even sure why, but I think it's partly just dealing with the inefficiency of things. Friends, it is truly such a struggle for me to learn to slow down. I know that at home I thrive on busyness...probably in a not so good way. I think being busy sometimes hinders my ability to savor life and conversations with people. So this is a good struggle that I am experiencing and I'm hoping to be renewed and changed by it.
I'm excited b/c tomorrow we're going back to another facility within the juvenile home and Dominic has arranged for me to speak with someone about teaching there starting in September. This is the school that I talked about a long time ago that doesn't have any teachers. I'm not sure what this will look like or how it will go. So mostly, I'm trying not to have any expectations...just hoping for the best.
I thought of a few things memorable about camp. First, you should know that God truly allowed a miracle to happen financially. This camp cost double what previous camps have cost b/c we rented tents and had it at a different location. But generous people came together to provide. And also, the last night at the Gala, we had a Christian d.j. All the music was pretty sweet Christian hip-hop and rap. It's pretty sweet to have such peppy positive party music!
Randall discussed a lot of his future plans for the ministry here, and I'm so glad that the matatu incident didn't scare him off. he told me I should just stick around full time and teach at the Nairobi school, where his kids will be going. I laughed :) But I'm very excited for his vision and motivation for the ministry.
1 comment:
Golly Amy,
As I read this post, I too begin to ponder on what you say about trust, as well as slowing down & appreciate the moment instead of always looking for the next thing on the agenda. I can totally relate to that, as I'm sure most Americans can.
And I'm thinking that you may not even realize that these posts here, which reveal so much about you, are opening the eyes of those that read them, about themselves as well. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I think God is also reaching to us through you with these posts by allowing us to see things in a different light through your eyes. I know for myself anyhow that you certainly provide me with a lot of food for thought, and in a very good way. I thank you for that Amy!
I appreciate your honesty in openly sharing your feelings with us. It is an openess that I can tell comes from your heart. You are indeed a blessing to us all.
As ever, ~Pam~
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